im treasuring the last few days of holidays meaning-fully.

went to this delicious resturant on wednesday with my clique.
and we only do stuipd things lyk taking pictures in the toilet.
hahahaha.








































but food there was great and something new. =)
fish market .. mahanttan??













oh ya!
the new affair that dam is having. hahahaha.












and the affair that had been going on behind dam's back! HAHAHAHAHA!















went to a bbq today.
had a day with my two other affairs.
bud and darling~ =)
short and sweet day i had.
and thanks bud 4 showering bee-hoon on my hair! hahahaha.

i cant help PL celebrate her birthday this year.
and i promise im tieing her to my side next year!
i don care~
wont let you people have her anymore.

i know you have tried. =)


i remember myself deleting my account from frenster becos i was not interested in frendster anymore.
i realy canot find a reason why should i continue using frendster after all the people that i know are already in my frend's list.
and at times i receive some weird message from some stranger asking for strange tings.
therefore .. i deleted my account without hesitation.
but i still do view my frend's frendster regularly.
and i realise .. .. im already off the "picture gallery" from some friends.
so wads does it meant by removing ME off ur frendster when its called FRENDSTER?
hahaha.
its oks~ ur hidden message is recieved. =)
reasons are not needed

BUT!
i also do SEE people adding me into their "picture gallery"! =)
thanks sweetheart!


i LOVE eating 50cents MAC ice-cream.
and it taste much sweeter with you love ones. =)




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my wonderful sunday ..

got digged outta bed at 11am.
family going down to IMM to get some presents for a event at night.
my DAD is the vice chairman of CLEMENTI RC.
therefore .. he has always been planning events for the elderlys in clementi.

this night ..
the event he had planned is a KTV session.
you just need to purchase a 2dollar ticket which includes ..
FOOD ..
DRINKS ..
LUCKY DRAW and lastly door gift.

my DAD has always been the one responsible in buying the lucky draw.
therefore we went to IMM to buy the presents.

how do you think it feels when you actualy know the thing under the wrapping paper is for a lucky draw?
hahahaha.
me erjie and mommy were giggling together when we saw those faces full of happiness and surprises.

i was seated at the room ..
together with around 30 auntys ..
they were singing some GOLDEN songs which i totaly haf no memory in.
my ears were bursted and im freezing lyk mad.
all i was waiting for was a COFFEE MAKER THAT WE BOUGHT!!
as u know ..
im a truely coffee addict and im so WANTING to take it la!
but .. .. it flew away la!! arghhh!!

then again .. y not KTV session for the teenagers? hahaha.
singapore realy afraid that the elderlys got nothing to do ha?

some pics when my DAD was the one who draw the numbers and distribute the presents.







































oh ya.
the food at wang zai is great. =)




















































































all at 34.90bucks. =)













Y

wa-hahahahaha!!

both me and laopo failed our BTT!
next attempt would be at 30th may.
-_-


no much feelings for me as i know that in life ..
it not always not that you will succeed in the things you do. =)
don wory guys .. i aint depressed at all.
on the other hand ..
my lovely dad managed to get his BUS license!
hahahaha. a plan for our future.

anyway~
me and laopo then went fareast to shop ..
i need to get 2 pair of jeans.
it had been so long since i haf the tot of buying jeans ..
and my taste and requirements are getting higher.
damnit!

then we meet up with darling and bia for lunch.
2 presents i need to get.
and i swear thousands of my brain cells has died! hahaha.
so hard to makes choices la.
YEAY .. .. choices!!

birthday should be the day that you would to recieve something that you like.
tts my conclusion.
hope the presents will be appreciated. =)

after bia left us ..
the 3 of us wonder around and decided to catch a movie.
watched breaking and entering ..
and i heard a sentence that is so true!

it does hurt the 2nd time when it hurt so much the first


=(
hope you are strong enough to pass through this time.
both me and him will be there for you 24/7.































i got a pair of cherry earings from my laopo.
and my cow got the matching necklace 4 me.
aint i fortunate? hahaha.

and bia goes .. "then later i go buy the ring for you!"
hahahaha. adorable biscuit.

and i got myself a anna sui mirror~~
=D















Y

just woke up not long ago.
need to prepare myself for tml BTT with laopo.
hope everyt will be smooth and we will PASS!
YAY!! =D

recently lots of mind games are playing around me ..
and im beginning to be so sick of it.
words and pictures from blogs are stabbing me deeply ..
causing great suffocation to me as well.

i had sort things out real clearly.
frendship takes two hands to clap as well.
if i had owaes been the one claping the air lyk an idiot ..
from now onwards ..
im not moving on.
many people had ask me to come to sense and that u aint any frend to me ..
i owaes stand strongly on my OWN point and defend YOU ..
becos i know they are wrongg.
but .. y r things turning this wayy?
u make me realise im standing strong for nothingg.

im a very sensitive person in terms of frendship i realise ..
many times i had been crying to my pals abt some little probs im facing ..
and it always abt FRIENDS!
tot there was a saying ..
true frend only need ONE will do?
when will i come to realise the moral of this sentence??
hmmmm.

stop making me bug myself with frendship problems ..
i realy know who are the realy true ones to me ALREADY!
no more snakes in my life anymore!
YAY!!

i bet BUD must be very happy for me.
apparently .. he has always been the ONE there for me!
if only he is a ger ..
i will make him/her my ONE AND ONLY frendd!
hahahahaha.
BUD .. wanna considerr?
anyway .. thanks for standing up too. =)

oh ya! come to mention ..
IM SO SO SO SO SO HAPY TO SEE DAM STANDING UP FOR CARTEL U KNOW?!
i dono when it bloodly hell started when everyone started to hate cartel.
be it the manager .. the fulltimers .. the cooks or even the new comers ..
everyone arnd me is DISCRIMINATING cartel lyk no tml.
i felt so lonely ..
dou there are times im realy angry but i always cant bear to leave cartel.
for thoes ****ers that tink i stayed becos my bf is working there too ..
then u r ****ing wrong as well.
sweetheart always speak out my true self to me ..
making me realise how much im rooted to cartel.
oks .. this is going no where.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!
anyway .. thanks EVERYONE tt stand up for cartel.
this pauline incident made me realise the unitied cartel we have.
thanks pauline too then.
im sure all ur cartel staffs frends will accept the apologise u state in your entry.



say BYE BYE to those fake people arnd me.
im a grown up! =)

dou is pain to realise .. but u r damn cruel

anyway T11 ..
next thursday .. 29th r u guys free?
everyone's opinion is asked.
pls tag me for the answer ..
im realy sincerely wanting to plan an outing.
=)







Y

im BACK!!



did anyone from MARS miss me?
hee.


past 2days i was totaly out of contact with the world except with the WEEs.
wanted to load some pictures but decided not too ..
so i can prevent people from tongue wagging~
smart rites? hahahaha.
at least tts wads im thinking ..
i choose to believe that human are difficult and weird creatures.

y would i say that humans are difficult and weird creatures?
reason are many to state.
humans are falling in love with own gender.
humans are killing each other outta several reasons.
humans are so self discriminating.
humans are not being TRUE to one another.
humans are indugle in jealously all over the world.
humans are competiting with each other every min every sec.
humans are LYING to their closest one for the better of himself/herself.
and most importantly ..
humans are so FAKE just to make sure ownself is outta trouble.

its just so heartbeaking.
but .. .. i still choose to believe me and myself.

sory to disappoint you ..
im oready keeping you at a distance away from me.
its me definitely .. .. not you. =)

reading all the EMO entries around me ..
i choose to be unique!
stay away from EMO and be the cheerpy ger you always know.
hahahhaa.

to those that had mention abt me in their blog ..
i have read them and ur messages are recieved and downloaded.
i truly regretted blogging my true feelings out ..
cos i got abit of being raped de feel.
feeling so nakedd!
i guess there is no more nextime of knowing the true pain from me.
so .. u can either choose to stay away from me so i don mess up your life ..
or choose to stay with me and allow me to bright you colours and laughters.
the choice is yours!
hahahaha.

friday going to chiong with darling agn!
with the company of laopo.
hope that day will add on to my memories in life.

watched `pathfinder` and `the messengers` today.
but i still think `300` will be the better choice.




terribly disappointed!












Y

a million of appologises to all those that i made them woried.
no worys yah ..
becos im back ..
ALIVE AND KICKING!! =D

its was just a terrible night that i went through.
haf the urge to msg my frends ..
realy need someone to be there for me.
but i stopped myself from doing so.
becos .. why should i trouble my frends with my "own" problems.
not as in OWN problems .. but own problems!
hahahaha. understand mah??
if u know me well enough .. u should know the PL/darling/laopo/nu`er/BUD/Wa/justine u know jus simply LOVES to bottle her problems up.
so instead of changing me .. would u mind accepting me? =D

anyway ..
things between me and him are not settled yet.
but tml his family chalet i will still be attending.
its a basic manners you see.
and he DID sms me telling me that he hope that i will go.
so .. yahh.
upon request .. i will go. =)
i hope the HUMONGOUS iceberg will melt real soon.
BUT .. the choice between freedom and love is yet to be solved.

in life ..
frendship is on your right hand and relationship is on your left. (r'ship includes kinship).

tiffany requested to settle the tings between us.
matters are half way through.
not bothering wads the future will be ..
i will still be looking forward.
truth are shocking and hurting.
to add on to my hapy mood.
i receive numerous care and concern from people around me.
it totaly makes my day.
thats why im back her as cheerful as ever! hahahahha.

DARLING was the first to read my entry and she got so woried.
i hereby explain why din i mention both DARLING and IMM becos until so far ..
both of them had not made me haf any single bit of worys in our frendship.
darling was afraid that i had excluded her in my life ..
but i did not!
she told me that i have her as listening ears and shoulders if i need them.
she said that dou i might not want them or her advices are not as good as others ..
she promise she will be there for me.
and she told me she love me. =)

PL was suppose to be the 1st to know that i was gonna break down becos i sms her.
but she only replied the next day b4 reading my emo entry.
and after she read my emo entry ..
she sms`ed me agn.
but both msges i was still in my dreamland.
buden im still glad at least im not forgotten by her.
she told me that she hoped tings would turn out fine for both of us soon.
she told me that she wanna be there for me now and always ..
she told me to smile for her ..
and she requested that we meet up real soon. =)

BUD will owaes be the one that never fails to read my entries ..
be it whether is ups or down.
if my entry affected his tots ..
he will always always sms me.
but he will NEVER ask me wads happened ..
gues thats the definiton of shoulder?
he told me that im important in his life and that he hopes he can do more for me ..
especailly when he reads my emo entries ..
becos it sux as he wont be able to do anything.
he told me that pretending to be hapy when im not is a very sucky ting ..
and he told me to be be truly hapy for him. =)

DAM also sms`ed me early in the morning.
but he was woried that im unhapy with him becos of some reasons.
i tot he read my blog oready. hah`
but now with everyting explained and clear ..
i hope our frendship will count on with the years. =)

[ spencil ] says:
i promise i will stay by you !
[ spencil ] says:
in work
[ spencil ] says:
in life
[ spencil ] says:
and i will keep this promise very seriously from now on!
[ spencil ] says:
just tell me anything and everything you need to voice out
[ spencil ] says:
i know how it feels to bottle it all up

LAOPO was mention by me that her mind is full of spencer rather than me.
i do mean it and i dont mean it.
i mean .. every ger around me are OBSESSED with their bf except for me.
and .. she still hafen got the chance to expose to this cruel world.
therefore i seldom tell her my problems becos i know it BEST that she canot and wont know how to solve it.
but .. she still does care for me in her own way.
she told me that she totaly understand wads im going through now ..
becos she felt as if she is in the whole suitaion herself.
she told me that she would not wanna lose me in her life ..
becos if she does .. she will die of heartache.
she told me that she love me too. =)

HANXIANG's simple reply made my day too.
i asked whether we still haf chalet going on cos me, darling and bud are realy looking forward to it.
he apologise cos he will not be organising as he is starting his IHP ..
so i told him that it was oks cos we haf many years to go ..
and he replied ..

'-'As ThInGs Go, It StArT To Be MoRe cLeaR '-' says:
yea
'-'As ThInGs Go, It StArT To Be MoRe cLeaR '-' says:
infinite =)

and not forgetting you .. my secret frend, junhao. =)

junhao says:
she's so pityful.. awww..
junhao says:
wana give her a good hug.
junhao says:
telling her, i'm her friend : )
junhao says:
-_-
junhao says:
and u bitch.
junhao says:
dun always pencil pencil.
junhao says:
go out with justine can.
junhao says:
i feel sad for her.
junhao says:
tsktsk.
junhao says:
go give justine my msn, tell her she can talk to me anytime : )
junhao says:
i can be her friend.

STACY aka my jie mei also understand me quite wells. =)











tell me .. with all these above ..
how can i not be hapy and return to my old selfs rites? HAHAHAHAHA!! =)


and ..
do you know how it feels jus having a cup of coffee with your pals and jus chit-chatting till early morning?
it feels totaly AWESOME! hor darlingg? =)














































































and things / surprises that laopo gave me.
its small but heartwarming. =)

































i gues that all for the day.
will be at chalet for 3d2n .. so wont be back here blogging.
buden continue to tag me oks? =)




upon reading 2dae's entry .. did i make you people all hapy too? =D






Y

currently 的 me realy need a shoulder.
i need to vex my tots outs.
be it whether its sad/hapy/angry or any other feeling im having now.

im so so so tired.
i need to voice outs!
cos .. keeping my downs to myself is realy suffocating me!
i cant breathe .. im drowning of pain!

whenever i come online,
i will read my frend's blog.
its a routine .. it goes down my list from my blog links.

tiffany.
obviously we 3 had broken up.
i dono wads the hell happened bewteen the 3 of us ..
but i know very clearly that we are already over.
she is back with the rest of the 'mudskippers' .. leaving me and eunice alone.
u may say tt its US that neglected you and made you real sad ..
therefore u need other frends .. or either besties ..
thats why u made tt decision~
i know jolly well tt i need to let go when i see u removing us away from ur "blog" ..
tts y i stop contacting you and everything.
becos i believe that since that is your choice ..
i will respect your decision.
but whenever you load the pics of you 4 happily together ..
i will always feel the sour-ness in my heart.
who to blame?
i chose to let you go oready .. wads there more to long?

pauline.
she visit us recently and she DESCRIBE till damn jialiat.
all the claims and thinking are just lyk taking a knife and killing us ONE BY ONE!
im so angry till im lost at words.
u know WE are working here and yet u still choose to lydat!
u know WE will read your blog and you still act so princess .. ..
im realy lost at words!

dam.
im so glad see-ing you defending cartel.
aldou i know your heart is no longer there.
but at least ..
i see c that little bit.
u owaes haf no trust and faith in yourself ..
therefore i can understand y u haf no trust and faith in me.
my 6th sense is strong ..
there are many times i KNOW tt u r blogging abt me ..
but .. i have my limitations.
i haf a real easily jealous boyfrend.



a big round of circle and im back with my problems with him.
im realy heartbroken and sad.
if i were to tell you that we might break up soon as my 6th sense tells me so ..
will u believe?

both me and gu are from 2 different country ..
therefore our thinking are naturally very very different.
he is a very traditional man.
`law by law.
`cheerful.
`never hides anger.
`very very protective.
these can be at advantages and disadvantages at times.

im a very different ger.
i don lyk to hide in my boyfrend arms and ask him to kiss me.
i don need to haf him in my sight 24/7.
i don lyk him to keep calling me and ask for me.

i love my frends ..
becos i know frendships are always longer then relationships.
and this is the main point why we had been quarrelling since we were together.

you once said you don wanna be lyk him ..
controlling me TT much.
but .. things changed.
things are already out of control.
and both of us are suffocating lyk no tml!

you ALWAYS mention to seperate.
and i dono when you are for real.
my sense of guessing is already fading as times goes by.
instead of facing it ..
u choose to let go.
wads does tt shows abt our relationship?

i don wanna to mention dos small details wads made ur quarrell becos i wanna let other people keep the good impression that you built.
aldou some people lyk PL or BUD had oready changed theirs ..

gu.
we both know that this time rnd is the major problem we both faced.
but y r u still avoiding till now?
you did not want to utter a single word to me today.
9hrs~
you bring me drinks .. you bring me food ..
but y when i tok to you .. u must ingore me?
im realy realy very sad u know.
but i will NEVER show it outs becos i don wanna make people arnd me sad and wory.
BUT how long can i keep?
we took cab home together WITHOUT even looking at each other ..
don even need to think abt toking.
u were just beside me but i feel tt our distance had oready furthered.
i do love you dou i know you wont believe me.
you always tink that you love me more than i do.
u mentioned ..
we are grown up oready and will know how to choose our own future.
normaly at this time i will oready gif in ..
but as i said .. i know where i stand now.
i still insisted in telling you tt i need and want my frends!
can u just accept this part of me?
y can i accept so much of you but u just cant gif in this part for me?





im FCUKING 难受！
upon reading till here ..
i may be dead oready!!



i exist on EARTH for NOTHING!
GOD DAMNIT!


kasandra had oready lost contact with me.
and so does liduan.
WSL got pissed off for me everytime CANOT meet him.
demin say im a bitch tt wants boyfrend and not frend.
tiffany left for the other 3.
eunice totaly haf no me in her eyes. her bf is everything!
i always piss spencer off becos i gif no security.
BUD has his brothers and lijing to busy with.
PL is so so far when i needed her.
heart has oready went missing in my life.
and gu .. .. ..









im


fcuking


tearing


now!












i hate my life. i hate me.

believe it anot ..
my 6th sense has always been STRONG since the day i was born.
=P

i know you are refering to me.
i realy hope you talk to me abt it u know ..
i hate misunderstandings.
or rather .. im sad. =(

i tot LOVE should be sweet.
it should be so great tt it can move a mountain?
so great tt it can make someone die for it?
but .. ..
isit me or wads?


results will be outs in 7hrs time?
bestest luck to everyone around me. =)


im avoiding.
and i dono y~






Y

it feels great to have everything thrown outs. =)

it was suppose to be a enjoyable day.
i was so looking forward to 2dae and it just din turn out GOOD at all.

i was ingored/devasted/irritated by you.
eversince we met .. you gave me your coldness.
i tried to heat the atmosphere up but ur coldness was stronger.
i realy don understand why!

2 times in a day i recieved your black face.
wads the hell!
totaly spoilted my day!

now that im clear of wads i wanna .. i will do things my way.
if leaving is your choice once agn ..
i will not turn back.
i had enuf.

we r sitting on the same bus .. different seats.
i started thinking to myself while looking at your backview.
why all the pain and suffering i tolerated?
therefore ..
i started screaming at your back .. .. ..

they asked .. why this why that.
im so sicked of answering them.
this time roundd .. i know where i standd.


一肚子的火。

aint making me hapy your job? ur attitude is drowning me.
im so sure we are gonna quarrel tml agn.





Y

没错！

我就像是根杂草！
不管你用多少力来踩我,
我都不会向你低头！
绝对不会！



牛的一家人又来了。
那热闹的家又再次带给他温暖和关怀~
一场又一场的麻将又要开桌了！
哈哈哈哈。


today's crowd was not as expected.
i think yesterday was better.
worked with the old birds was so funn.


i wanna complain la!
tt manager of mine is so so TI-KO-PEI!!
he is so stuck up with the 2 indos new comers.
they kept communicating with hokkien lyk NONE of us on earth understand.
HE kept teasing them and following behind their back la.
HE needed them to do closing BECOS only jeffery is closing outside ..
so he BEGGED them!
but in the end .. it was JO who did the closing with jeff la!
the 2gers just played with HIM and cleared plates!


*conversion in hokkien*
GERS: don wanna la! hungry lehs. we hafen eat!
HIM: eat here la!
GERS: here where got thing to eat? all close oready.
HIM: oks la oks la ..i buy food for your oks?

and then he ordered a 236 for them!
wads d!!!!!!
so they happily BOTH ate together in the office while poor jeff run outside alone!

the whole is so unfair!
even JO thinks so oks!

he tok to others lyk we all owe himj $$ lydat ..
tok to them lyk some tame sheep lydat!
BUAY TA HAN AH!
*goosebump all SHOT up cans!*


forget abt this old man.
tell you guys abt another incident.
to those that wanna gossip behind the outlet.
HE scolded HER .. lyk finaly la!
although the scene and atmosphere was so virgous ..
but .. yah~
SHE got sacked.



daddy and ah po will be coming back tml from hainan after 10days.
will be going airport to fetch them.
miss them.
EVEN more anxious to see wads he have got for us!
HAHAHHAAHA!!

oh ya~
every fri and sat we will have "fixed" cab le.
all thanks to dearest PL! =)
such a cutes daddy u havee.
hais. miss you la!


my boyfrend is a big jealousy pot!
是我的就是我的. 就算我在怎样的不爽还是不开心，都是不能改变的事实。牛都不在意乐，我还在意些什么？



Y

hapy belated 三八妇女节！ to all my 三八 frends.


at here i apologise to those that are affected by my emo entry the other day.
ermm .. im much more better oready.
sory ah ..
made you guys so woried.
but remember i have a MAN character?
i wont shed and break down so easily de.
so yahh.
im back once agn.







finaly cow is back from hometown.


i got so many things to prepare b4 the start of my attachment.
seriously looking forward to it.
do you darling?
*though is at kallang la!*
hahahaha.



oh ya! can anyone be as blur as me? *info for MY PL!!*
i was planned 6 - 10pm on a friday night.
which im totaly reluctant and pissed about!
but yesterday stuart called me ..
and he asked whether can he extend me to 11pm of even closing.
and .. of cos i agreed.
THEN .. i wanted to send a sms to dam supposingly ..
the sms written "did you tell stuart smth? how come he suddenly wanna extend me?"
BUT! DAMNIT! I SENT TO STUART LA!
then he called me!
and of cos .. i hanged up his call!!
then he sms me back .. "did you msg the wrong person? u toking behind my back?"
HAHAHAHAHAHA!
how god damn blur can i be?


but since a promise is made ..
i will keep it. =)





Y

im standing at a crossroad.

im so confused. so vexed.
and i choose not to let any of my frends know ..
mainly becos i got a strong feeling they aint interested. *im serious*

people used to seeing me joking around or laughing out loud ..
im sure a moody and emo justine totaly freaks and turn their day upside down.

but im feeling so fcuking sad now.
2am in the morning ..
all i can do is moan infront of my computer.

i remember telling bud that looking and thinking of chun will cure a million illness and trouble ..
but im sory .. i bluffed ya!
whenever im doing nothing .. these naughty tots will run through my mind agn.
BUT .. chun does help alot when i feeling lyk killing myself. hahaha.

but blame who for all these nonsense happening to me?
if someone has no fault on himself/herself ..
nothing can happens to him/her.
i admit .. my character and personalility sucks to the core.
and i thank all of you for being able to accept me.
*thanks a million* =)

DAMNIT! IM DAMN EMO NOW!


i wanna say it all out!
i wanna tell someone.
but i just cant force myself to.
everyone around me seems so interconnected to each other ..
im so woried it would spread around in less than a day.

im stressing this following sentence ..

IT DOES NOT


MEANS TT I DO


NOT TRUST ALL


YOU GUYS!



im so bloated with things.
i need someone.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

KILL THE DAMN EMO ME!

i seriously wanna choose happiness.
do you see it?
it sucks. the feeling sucks!

if any day i disappear on you guys ..
don wory.
cos i will be back shortly ..
be back in the fun and loving 娃/bud/PL/Laopo/justine infront of you people.
and .. if that day happens ..
please tell ah gu not to woryy.
i will be somewhere .. trying to rearrange my tots and be BACK to his arms as his LAOPO.
thanks for passing the message. =)

*but please do tell him on the day im
disappear! PLEASE do not tell him now. i
dont wanna him to get SO paranoid over
me now.*



i hope i did made any of ur days since i met you.
anyone of you. =)

我真的很难过！people 原谅我的不说~ 我有我的苦衷！






with the above emo entry.
to end your day at least abit happier ..
i present my 万能 medicine to you.
Y

i owaes have the urge to blog about certain tings ..
but whenever i sit infront of my computer ..
everything is gone!


im trying hard to remember wads i wanna say!

giving you people abt the NEW updates of The Cafe` Cartel
the 10% service charge had been waved off ..
and from tml onwards ..
the 50% cake is back~~


to clear things out are heartbreaking.


you gave me a feeling that im totaly outta your world.
and i hate it.


oh ya!
currently Kbox have this promotion.
every MONDAY u go .. there will be a 5% discount for members.
so meaning .. if the next monday u go K again ..
there will be a 10% discount!
and it carrys on .. .. .. ..
anyone interested in going K with discounts ..
find me oks? =D


im no longer needed at workplace anymore.
my hrs are so less BECOS boss wanna cut cost .. meaning cut labour cost!
i WAS angry .. until i read this horoscope advice on this week i`weekly.
周围生活的环境也许会有变化，
与其埋怨，
步入调整自己来适应，
会实际得多！
so true har? so .. im not angry anymore! hahahhaa. =D



i know its all for me.
but i realy feel bad c`ing you with a black face.
tell me .. wads can i do to make you feel better?
i admit .. .. im selfish.


i was reading abt the relationship between this 2 mediacorp artists.
they were frends for 6years and slowly they began to be an item.

female: 我很珍惜我们的友谊，对我来说，友情比爱情重要，爱情会结束，但友情不会！这完全是我的想法！
therefore my frends ..
please trust me that i treasure you more than my cow~ =X


BUT family is of cos more important la!
i treasure you more than anyone else. although im jus a xtra in ur mind




























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it had been a while since i last went dating with my laopo.
went cartel for lunch cum dinner .. we had long for it since last year.
walk around town area and she bought quite a number of stuffs.
lastly .. went K. =)
































































she is jus so cutes.
her words, her innocence and her "suddenly" mature-ness jus make me love her to the core.
she told me .. "you should have seen when im with my mom!"
AND she uses RUBBER BAND to bundle her hard core CASH!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA




3 more days for my love to be back.





im beginning to fall in love with my jie mei too!
she is such a babe.
and we TOTALY think alyk! hahahaha.
*will you read this jie mei?*




work work work.
spend spend spend.
adore adore adore.

my current philosophy.




oh ya!
miss my another darling?
there you go~



























i despite YOU!


so copycat! hes MINE! i don care!
finaly .. you had blogged! i miss you. =(





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1st march, 4am ..
cow left singapore and went back home for 8days.


we are once apart from each other and carrying on our forever love.
i miss him.

but i will shed no tears becos its not necessary ..
and i will wait patiently for his return. =)
wait for the chance for me to run into his arms!


i came to realise ..
its either u face it or u avoid it.
im proud i stayed and faced it ..
cos thats the way a soldier should be. =)
i aint timid by running awayy.








giving you full support without your knowledge. =)




好希望有一天能看到你~