a million of appologises to all those that i made them woried.
no worys yah ..
becos im back ..
ALIVE AND KICKING!! =D

its was just a terrible night that i went through.
haf the urge to msg my frends ..
realy need someone to be there for me.
but i stopped myself from doing so.
becos .. why should i trouble my frends with my "own" problems.
not as in OWN problems .. but own problems!
hahahaha. understand mah??
if u know me well enough .. u should know the PL/darling/laopo/nu`er/BUD/Wa/justine u know jus simply LOVES to bottle her problems up.
so instead of changing me .. would u mind accepting me? =D

anyway ..
things between me and him are not settled yet.
but tml his family chalet i will still be attending.
its a basic manners you see.
and he DID sms me telling me that he hope that i will go.
so .. yahh.
upon request .. i will go. =)
i hope the HUMONGOUS iceberg will melt real soon.
BUT .. the choice between freedom and love is yet to be solved.

in life ..
frendship is on your right hand and relationship is on your left. (r'ship includes kinship).

tiffany requested to settle the tings between us.
matters are half way through.
not bothering wads the future will be ..
i will still be looking forward.
truth are shocking and hurting.
to add on to my hapy mood.
i receive numerous care and concern from people around me.
it totaly makes my day.
thats why im back her as cheerful as ever! hahahahha.

DARLING was the first to read my entry and she got so woried.
i hereby explain why din i mention both DARLING and IMM becos until so far ..
both of them had not made me haf any single bit of worys in our frendship.
darling was afraid that i had excluded her in my life ..
but i did not!
she told me that i have her as listening ears and shoulders if i need them.
she said that dou i might not want them or her advices are not as good as others ..
she promise she will be there for me.
and she told me she love me. =)

PL was suppose to be the 1st to know that i was gonna break down becos i sms her.
but she only replied the next day b4 reading my emo entry.
and after she read my emo entry ..
she sms`ed me agn.
but both msges i was still in my dreamland.
buden im still glad at least im not forgotten by her.
she told me that she hoped tings would turn out fine for both of us soon.
she told me that she wanna be there for me now and always ..
she told me to smile for her ..
and she requested that we meet up real soon. =)

BUD will owaes be the one that never fails to read my entries ..
be it whether is ups or down.
if my entry affected his tots ..
he will always always sms me.
but he will NEVER ask me wads happened ..
gues thats the definiton of shoulder?
he told me that im important in his life and that he hopes he can do more for me ..
especailly when he reads my emo entries ..
becos it sux as he wont be able to do anything.
he told me that pretending to be hapy when im not is a very sucky ting ..
and he told me to be be truly hapy for him. =)

DAM also sms`ed me early in the morning.
but he was woried that im unhapy with him becos of some reasons.
i tot he read my blog oready. hah`
but now with everyting explained and clear ..
i hope our frendship will count on with the years. =)

[ spencil ] says:
i promise i will stay by you !
[ spencil ] says:
in work
[ spencil ] says:
in life
[ spencil ] says:
and i will keep this promise very seriously from now on!
[ spencil ] says:
just tell me anything and everything you need to voice out
[ spencil ] says:
i know how it feels to bottle it all up

LAOPO was mention by me that her mind is full of spencer rather than me.
i do mean it and i dont mean it.
i mean .. every ger around me are OBSESSED with their bf except for me.
and .. she still hafen got the chance to expose to this cruel world.
therefore i seldom tell her my problems becos i know it BEST that she canot and wont know how to solve it.
but .. she still does care for me in her own way.
she told me that she totaly understand wads im going through now ..
becos she felt as if she is in the whole suitaion herself.
she told me that she would not wanna lose me in her life ..
becos if she does .. she will die of heartache.
she told me that she love me too. =)

HANXIANG's simple reply made my day too.
i asked whether we still haf chalet going on cos me, darling and bud are realy looking forward to it.
he apologise cos he will not be organising as he is starting his IHP ..
so i told him that it was oks cos we haf many years to go ..
and he replied ..

'-'As ThInGs Go, It StArT To Be MoRe cLeaR '-' says:
yea
'-'As ThInGs Go, It StArT To Be MoRe cLeaR '-' says:
infinite =)

and not forgetting you .. my secret frend, junhao. =)

junhao says:
she's so pityful.. awww..
junhao says:
wana give her a good hug.
junhao says:
telling her, i'm her friend : )
junhao says:
-_-
junhao says:
and u bitch.
junhao says:
dun always pencil pencil.
junhao says:
go out with justine can.
junhao says:
i feel sad for her.
junhao says:
tsktsk.
junhao says:
go give justine my msn, tell her she can talk to me anytime : )
junhao says:
i can be her friend.

STACY aka my jie mei also understand me quite wells. =)











tell me .. with all these above ..
how can i not be hapy and return to my old selfs rites? HAHAHAHAHA!! =)


and ..
do you know how it feels jus having a cup of coffee with your pals and jus chit-chatting till early morning?
it feels totaly AWESOME! hor darlingg? =)














































































and things / surprises that laopo gave me.
its small but heartwarming. =)

































i gues that all for the day.
will be at chalet for 3d2n .. so wont be back here blogging.
buden continue to tag me oks? =)




upon reading 2dae's entry .. did i make you people all hapy too? =D






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